Clean Up Time

Lately, I've been wondering how I'm doing in the Karmic Book of Life...I don't know if this book actually exists or not, but I've been thinking a lot about it. So many intense things have been happening 'to me' and I've been wondering what my part is in it. I've been feeling victimized but I'm not that ignorant to believe that things just happen to me without my participation...but I'm not sure how I'm participating and this has me perplexed. I love the phrase "Own Your Shit." I'm a big believer in that and I think people who know me would agree that I do this (if I'm aware of it - sometimes I'm unconscious of my "shit" and that's a different story...) Suffice it to say, I'm struggling right now and looking at my parts and wondering - without a whole lot of insight - which is a vulnerable feeling for me.

So today I was presented with a concrete opportunity to "clean up my shit" and I am so GRATEFUL for the obvious - thank you spirit, because subtlety is not my forte right now. My husband told me that the seal on our main floor toilet has broken and yucky, sewer water was seeping out on to the linoleum (gross!) He was less than enthusiastic about fixing it. But I tell ya, I jumped right on it! In minutes we were in the car, heading to the hardware store. I had it all figured out, I bought cheap rubber gloves I could throw away and I attacked that sewer water with gusto! Now it is late afternoon and the toilet is fixed and that bathroom is cleaner than I've ever seen it since I've lived here. I have no idea how I'm doing in the book of life, but it felt good to get in there and clean some s*@t up! Oh yeah!

ps - I just want to give props to my hubby and say that I LOVE living with somebody "handy!"