Truth

Truth is inspiring to me. I love when people speak their truth. It
completely enlivens the conversation and the energy becomes
palpable. I was in a conversation earlier tonight and I was just
kind of blah blah blahing away and somebody stopped me and called me
on it - bam! The conversation changed immediately and the truth was
revealed. And greater intimacy occurred. What a privilege.

Oh Christmas Tree

We got our tree today. This year it's a fresh one and it smells so good! Last year we used an artificial one and the top is permanently tilted so we couldn't put a star on it and Sophie cried when she found out it wasn't a real tree...no tears today...

Ever since I was little, I loved to sit by myself and stare at the tree with its lights on. Beauty inspires me. Christmas lights are so beautiful. Tomorrow I'll post a picture of our tree - it is so perfect! When Andy and I bought it, it was all tied up and skinny and frozen. Then we brought it in, untied it and set it in the sunny window. A half hour later it was fluffy and fat and perfectly shaped!!! I am so grateful for this tree that graces our living room.

Right Now

"simply put, the future has arrived, and it is time for you to be who you are"

Planet Waves, December 2007

Love

Neem Karoli Baba (Krishna Das's guru) - look at his sweet face...

So I have to speak more about Krishna Das...I saw him last night. Krishna Das was here in Boulder, wearing his signature red t-shirt and red flannel shirt. He looks a lot like my father and they have a similar way about them. Since my father has died, it is especially poignant to see KD and be reminded of my dad and also to see signs of age in KD.

Apparently last night was the last stop on his tour for awhile - he will now take 2 months off - and his voice was a bit ragged and he seemed kind of road weary. But he sang and played his harmonium for 3 hours - it was so great. I got to go with a dear friend - Eleni - and we swayed and clapped together and sang our hearts out.

KD told a story about his guru - Neem Karoli Baba - and what his teacher said to him so many years ago. "Lose yourself in love." KD speaks about following his spiritual practice in order to have a "transparent heart." These concepts seem so simple to read yet so profound to live by. I want a transparent heart - that takes total trust, complete surrender, I think. But that is what I want and that is what I'm working towards. And listening to Krishna Das and practicing 'kirtan' is one sure fire way to get there. As Krishna Das said last night: "the results are inevitable."