good medicine

I am painting a picture of Medicine Buddha (the Buddha of Healing) on my front hall wall. I've been doing this for over a year...first, I hand plastered the wall, then my step-daughter Emmy painted the wall. There it sat for about a year. About 2 months ago, I started penciling in the outline. This has been such a process for me and it's taught me a lot about myself. I've been paralyzed for fear that I will "mess it up." So I won't do any any work on it...aargghh!

I went to a high teaching about Moses last night - it was highly inspirational. I wish you could have been there. Moses brought the Jews out of slavery, and some of these Jews were attached to their identity as slaves. I've been noticing areas of my life where I feel like a 'slave' or where I enslave myself. If I never paint my Medicine Buddha because of my fear of imperfection, then I am a slave to my ego...

And Medicine Buddha has really good mojo - check it out: Medicine Buddha is the embodiement of the collective healing power of all the Buddhas. He is the physician, the enlightened healer who protects living beings from physical and mental sickness, as well as other dangers and obstacles. Medicine Buddha helps all beings to effectively eradicate the three poisons of Attachment, Hatred, and Ignorance, which are the cause of all sickness and suffering. Medicine Buddha reminds us that awakening is not an escape or retreat from personal problems, but rather reaching outward and embracing the entire world with healing love and compassion in our heart.

Nothing wrong with that, right? So, here I go...I'm going to finish it this week!

xoxo